The past couple weeks have been full of chaos and turmoil. But they have also been full of grace, love, and joy. For those of you who haven't heard yet, my dad passed away on March 5th, about 2 and a half weeks ago. He was a great man and an awesome father. It's such a blessing for me to be able to share that he was saved; he recommitted his life to Christ recently. I actually found out at the funeral, which is kind of crazy. Prior to that I'd been feeling uncertainty and doubt. I tried to take solace in God's sovereignty, but it was hard to think that it was part of God's plan for my dad to suffer in eternity. But - He is good. He is faithful. And his plan is perfect. Through all the sadness and through all the tears, God has been there for me and my family, and I can truly say that I am so blessed.
But it is by no means getting easier. I thought with time things would ease up, but things have just gotten more and more difficult. Trials are hitting me left and right, and I feel Satan's unrelenting blows. It's true that you can NEVER let your guard down. Satan will wait for you to let your guard down and try to cheap shot you. What kind of coward would use this kind of situation to take advantage of you when you're down, right? But Satan is definitely capable of doing that. Already some of the employees at my dad's restaurants are taking advantage of the situation to benefit themselves (stealing, shady business, etc.) How then, would Satan not be capable of such evil? Sin is lame.
Anyways, like I said, things are only getting more difficult, and this pattern will continue in the months to come. Please pray for me and my family! We need it so much right now. Not that any of us ever need God more in one time than any other, it's just that our need for God is so much more evident in this time of trials.
This entry was unorganized and not well written. But it's ok, I'm just writing my jumbled thoughts. Just thought I'd blow the dust off this thing and use it since I neglected it for a while.
Psalms 18:2. Look it up, brothers and sisters! <3
I will write more later.